Love & Closure

Originally uploaded by EdnPHX.

I had to say goodbye today. It was the hardest goodbye I have ever had to do, but it was necessary. Necessary for me and necessary for him. It was of those moments in your life were time stands still, moves in slow motion, and moves too quickly all in the same experience. I had to say goodbye to move on, to move forward, to complete the healing process. With a hug and a smile, I said goodbye. As emotionally painful as it was, it felt right. This song sums it all up:

Always On Your Side - Sheryl Crow

My yesterdays are all boxed up and neatly put away
But every now and then you come to mind
Cause you were always waiting to be picked to play the game
But when your name was called, you found a place to hide
When you knew that I was always on your side

Well everything was easy then, so sweet and innocent
But your demons and your angels reappeared
Leavin' all the traces of the man you thought you'd be
Leavin' me with no place left to go from here
Leavin' me so many questions all these years

But is there someplace far away, someplace where all is clear
Easy to start over with the ones you hold so dear
Or are you left to wonder, all alone, eternally
This isn't how it's really meant to be
No it isn't how it's really meant to be

Well they say that love is in the air, but never is it clear,
How to pull it close and make it stay
Butterflies are free to fly, and so they fly away
And I'm left to carry on and wonder why
Even through it all, I'm always on your side

But is there someplace far away, someplace where all is clear
Easy to start over with the ones you hold so dear
Or are we left to wonder, all alone, eternally
But is this how it's really meant to be
No is it how it's really meant to be

Well if they say that love is in the air, never is it clear
How to pull it close and make it stay
If butterflies are free to fly, why do they fly away
Leavin' me to carry on and wonder why
Was it you that kept me wondering through this life
When you know that I was always on your side

Now, it’s time to explore the new love in front of me and learn to love again. Sometimes with pain comes progress. And sometimes it takes love to find love. Now the anticipation of a new “great love” is happening. As this goodbye, as painful as it may be, will let both of us move forward.